I would like to thank you for making me the person I am right now, today. Thank you for the hard times that have made me motivated to change you. All the times you were seeking to define me, I craved something better. You have shaped me into what I am at the moment, but God told me He has had better plans for me all along!
Since I am going to follow God now, I won't be needing you to call, talk, write, or remind me you are around. Don't bother using old friends, acquaintances, or family members to have me believe you are still a major player in my life. God has said He will walk with me by my side for the rest of my journey.
Yes, we had some very good times! We spent many nights staying up late eating and watching movies! Times in college with friends that were amazing and hilarious! Ski trips, mission trips, wedding, children being born, etc... My life is very well known to you. But, you never let me look at my future because you wanted me to dwell with you constantly. At times, to be honest, you were suffocating me. You have held me back.
From now on, you will be nothing more to me than a foundation. I have built my life with you, but I don't have to see you or think about you constantly. I will build on top of you something better. Something grander by far than you would have led me to believe was possible. When I was young and you didn't influence me very much, I had dreams! I wanted to be strong and dangerous! I wanted to sail stormy seas! Ride the range with a six gun and a belt full of bullets! I made a mistake and let you steal those dreams from me. My bad. It won't happen again. You don't own me anymore.
Day by day, you will have a smaller impact on me. Little by little, I will be forgetting you. Step by step, you will not weigh as heavy chains on me. Inch by inch, I will leave you behind. Writing this, I feel you slowly dissapating from my memory.
God has shown me a bright future of beauty, strength, love, danger, and FREEDOM! Freedom from you. I am not defined by you, my past. No more will I be called fat, dumb, worthless, slow, stupid, or any other reality defining words. I am defined by my Father who calls me an heir, a son, His precious child, a warrior, a winner, strong, redeemed, holy. He said He loves me. I have no reason to doubt Him.
Well Past, I'd like to say it's been great, but greatness is to come. You've been adequate at best. My Father has promised me eternity in paradise! I'll see you around every now and then, but don't expect me to acknowledge you anymore. We are through! I'm pressing on to the goal! (Philippians 3:14)
With all Sincerity and Promise,
Me
